What you are expressing here Rich is just the fact of being human. I don’t think we ever achieve a state of constant perfection, we all fall back into the archaic sacrificial from time to time despite our best intentions.. This is the essence of the spiritual path, constant awareness and constant striving, James puts it wonderfully:
“Goodness or badness according to “sacrifice” enables us to be good by contrast with some defiling other.
Goodness or badness according to mercy is discovered in our being moved, or not, to show neighborliness to one considered defiling. The attitude toward victims (the defiling other) is the criterion for neighborliness”
