Rich, I think that your ‘behavioral shell as a persona conditioned from past experience’ is also loved by God. I think we all have to learn to think with our hearts and less with our heads. Perhaps you could think in terms of incorporating and transforming your ‘behavioural shell’ into a whole with your inner self-loving awareness. Carl Gustav Jung advised us not to throw out our shadow side as that is where all the energy lies. You are obviously aware of its presence, so when it appears you gradually soften and transform it, while retaining its energy. Does this make sense?