Well, Rich it seems to me that you are asking yourself if you can be as dispassionate about your present as about your past. But, do we have to be ‘dispassionate’ about ourselves? Would it not be better to accept ourselves and even love ourselves, while being aware of our imperfections? God loves us unconditionally, warts and all. By loving ourselves I do not mean conceit, or a lack of humility, but rather an awareness of the Christ within. SO, if God loves us warts and all, should we not love ourselves in this knowledge, with humility?