Michael, it seems that your life has been very difficult for some time now. While we are all brought into being by our parents and those close to us until adulthood, we continue to be influenced by others around us all our lives. But what is essential is the realisation that we are all made in the image and likeness of a loving God, and that we find God in others, who, like ourselves, are flawed people also made in God’s image. James opens up for us the the knowledge of a loving God coming towards us without any judgment. Loneliness is a terrible thing that eats into us, and distorts our judgement, and so many people endure it without knowing how many others are going through the same experience. Have you thought of finding a group which is working on James’s course that you could join?